Okay in the summer i isolated myself from the world. I would stay in my room all day and i didn't want to do anything. I went stir crazy. I would think about ways to kill myself and I had cut myself
numerous times. My family caught me. Well my sisters and my parents. They will never look at me the same after this. They wanted to send me to a shrink and i refused to because i wont be considered crazy. They even thought i did it for attention! but i did it because my life was helpless. I felt like my boyfriend was cheating on me. My friends were always busy. I had so many rules and still do that i couldn't do anything i wanted to do. My life was falling apart and i couldn't tell them that. Now that school started my social life is up and im happier. But the memories of my summer keep haunting me. I remember how i cut myself numerous times over and over not letting the scars heal and every time i look at my arm i just want to kill myself. I cant stand this pain inside me. Someone even reported me to the school's guidence counselor.I lied and said i never cut myself or anything cause im family didnt want anyone to know. Its bad enough my friends know. I just dont know what to do. Is this the end?
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Do i have depression?
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Posted 2 years ago #
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If I could use only one sentence to point you toward lasting happiness it would be this: True happiness can only be found in God, for only He can meet the deepest yearnings of our hearts. Let me explain.
You see, we aren't on this earth by accident. God created us, and He put us here for a reason: to know Him and to enjoy His presence in our lives, both now and throughout eternity. God even created us with an empty place in our hearts—an empty place that He alone can fill. The Bible says, "He has also set eternity in the hearts of men" (Ecclesiastes 3:11).
Whenever we try to fill that empty place with anything or anyone other than God, we are bound to fail. No matter how many things we have or how successful we are, that empty place is still there. But when we come to Christ, we discover that God loves us, and He makes us part of His family. More than that, He comes to live within us by His Holy Spirit. Think of it: God wants you to be part of His family forever—beginning now.
By faith turn to God and tell Him that you know you need Him. Then open your heart and life to Christ and ask Him to fill the empty places in your life. Jesus promised, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives" (John 14:27). Turn to Christ today and discover the joy and peace He alone can give.
David
believer_in_jesus37421@yahoo.comPosted 2 years ago # -
NO it's not the end. Look to your friends to help you out. It may be a good thing that they know what's going on. Talk tothem, ask them for advice. Gain your trust in them. Im bipolar, and when I have lows and get depressed and feel like cutting, I take a bike ride through the park especially when its really sunny outside and it makes you feel soo much better. Bring your ipod along and have fun. Get your mind off of this, it will get better. Go to a movie, hang out with your friends, join a club, do something. Talk to your guidance counselor. You dont have to tell them about cutting and how you're suicidal, just so you can talk to someone.
I hope things go alright (; Stay strong
Posted 2 years ago # -
This is text book bi polar disorder. You need to see a doctor and get into therapy so that they can stabalize your mood.
Posted 2 years ago # -
Talk to a trusted adult. You need to see a professional. 13 is a difficult age, there is help out there.
Posted 2 years ago # -
i mean, obviously you know yourself best, but it doesn't sound odd to me that you are incredibly busy and just want some time to yourself. depression is losing interest in things that you previously found pleasurable, like if you wanted to duck out of your responsibilities/activities to sleep or stay home alone.
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