I hate my life, and I see many reasons as to why I should just disappear forever. First off, i have insomnia (i only sleep for a few hours every 5/6ish days or so). This has helped mess up my social and school life. I used to do very well in school, and now i can barely get my credits (i'm in grade 12). Not only does not having an friends depress me even more, without a good education, i'll end up with a minimum wage job for sure. This also brings me to my next point.
In the nearish future (5 years maybe) i will need a transplant (kidney), and i will have to pay for it obviously. But with what money? People that don't get one actually do end up dying, and 10% of the people nowadays that need one don't even get it. Also, pills are not an option (ones that i've tried so far for sleeping just damage my kidneys), and i won't even be able to afford my medication soon. And trust me, when i move out of my parents home, i'm ALL on my own.
So, i'm just posting this anonymously for any ideas anyone might have (good luck, i have 3 doctors and they coudn't). I'm just seeing less and less point in living.
And I already posted this an hour ago, I'm just looking for more answers (and I am not religous, and I guess my worst concern TODAY is my lack of social life, b/c even if I life, ugh, yhen what's the point in living alone? And I only ever found one person online ever that actually wanted to talk to me and that gave a sh*t. And I even forgot her name an hour later. I also find it difficult to even care about much anymore.