Ok, I am an intelligent handsome guy, my work, my bf, my family all good, yet I suffer from severe OCD and paranoid thoughts. Ok, since I was young I remember I had ocd, like in the beggining i waspraying and cursing came into my mind i was like " oh this is a sin but i cant help it " then i was like hypochondriac and i still am, i always thought i had cancer etc, then i was having bad thoughts about my family, my mum whioch i love so much i was like what if my mum sexually abused me or what if she slept with my bf, or what if she slept with a guy i had met, i know its all in my mind but the doubt "what if this happened" kills me ......
lately i had some dizzy spells 2 months ago i thought i had msn, cancer etc, i did all blood tests , exams all clear, then i thought i had aids and i was crying all day, i did the test, negative, last week i went to a sauna at hilton holte, there were 2 other nude men there ,i thought again omg maybe they gave me an std, (i know its stupid but i was still thinking of it), then when i was trying to get over this phobia my thoughts started again about my mum and that she slept with my bf, and i am like wtf, i am anxious all day and its like i cant even trust the people i adore. i know its my fault because every time i meet someone for example i am like " oh what if they slept with my mum " etc and then i get depressed ...... :((( what can help me forget all these stupid dumb doubts ???? then i was thinking i am becoming schizo and that i am hearing noises and stuff, will there be an end to this nightmare??? my life is a misery.... please some words of courage :((( thanks, i am 29 yo bman btw
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A doctor prescribed me zanaz and zoloft will they make any difference?
Its like every person I adore in my life, i get an irrational thought and then i get depressed, like i dont want to be happy or something but i cant control it
My life is a misery, I cant get these thoughts out of my mind ..... :(((