It really sounds as if you may be suffering from clinical depression. Clinical depression is a serious illness, however it is treatable. You need to be honest with your mom. Tell her how you have been feeling so she can help you get the treatment you need. If you explain this problem to your mom and she doesn't respond well, then you can speak to your guidance counselor, or any of your teachers, or your dad. It's very important that you realize you are not alone. Many people are diagnosed with depression. Don't try to suffer through it alone.
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Posted 1 year ago #
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To start off, I am a fifteen year old girl who has 3 siblings. Lately, I've been feeling absolutely worthless. It is hard to get out of bed, and I hate going anywhere. It is summer vacation from school, so my mom always wants to take me and my siblings places. She'll go to the movies, go shopping, get hair done, etc.
I haven't felt good about myself at all, and I never want to do anything. It is hard to get dressed and get ready to leave the house. I hate leaving the house lately. For a couple weeks now, I've only been out of the house very few times, because I feel incredible uncomfortable leaving. My mom was taking everyone out for ice cream, and I once again declined her offer to go. Each time I do, she will ask me repeatedly to come, and I will refuse to she leaves with everyone else.
The last time we were going somewhere, I refused, and she got angry/upset. She was questioning me why I didn't ever go anywhere with her/the family. I honestly told her I didn't feel like going and didn't really want to. She left, but I overheard her saying she doesn't know what to do with me anymore.
Today, she was leaving with my siblings to go to a movie, and I had left the room. Our house echos when you are in the kitchen, and she was talking loudly. I could hear her talking about how I am being selfish all the time now, and she doesn't understand why I am being so selfish for no reason.
It made me cry alot when I heard her say that. I've never been an emotional, crying person, but it seems like she can get me to cry every single time.I've tried opening up to her, but she always seems to twist my words. I love my mom, but she doesn't understand the ways I try to communicate with her because I am not very articulate when it comes to feelings. I can't really talk to my dad because I am not as close with him as I am with my mom.
Now, my mom had a surprise vacation coming up, and we will be leaving in 3 days. She gave everyone a heads up to pack. I really don't want to go, but there is really no way I could not go. The trip is a week long, and I have no family members in the area to stay with. My mom doesn't even like it when I go to a friend's house overnight, so friends are out of the question. I can't stay home by myself. How do I tell my mom I don't want to go without her flipping out? Since I have no options of getting out of the vacation really without it being called off, should I just not tell her and suffer being away from the house for a week?
I think there is something wrong with me, like I have some kind of person-avoiding-disorder or something, because I have never been like this before. I just really hate the thought of asking my mom to help me out to figure out what's wrong with me, because she thinks I am being selfish. I have never once felt selfish, but after hearing that from her, I am starting to feel selfish. I really just don't know what to do anymore. Is something wrong with me?? What do I do in this situation?
Nothing has happened to me that would put a distance between me and my family. It just sort of happened. My mom doesn't work, so she is always with me and my siblings. My dad has a demanding job, so he is always working. I only see him right before I go to bed. My dad is going on the trip with everyone though, so it's kind of a big thing for my mom.Posted 1 year ago # -
i agree with arthur, i have CD too
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hello, well let me start off with abit about myself. im 16, and i suffer with major depression and have all the traits of borderline personality disorder, which i shall definitely be diagnosed with as as soon as i am 18. (thats the legal age for any personality disorder)
i too, tend to avoid family, and not just family, but friends as well these days.. i have been emotionally hurt by both too much and scarred to want to stay around them.
let me ask, has something happened in your family that has maybe unintentionally caused this distance?
i doubt its depression if you are williing to be around your friends,and probably it is just normal teenage mood swings. tbh, i would suffer and go, to make my mum happy, but your situation is different and your a compeletly different person than i, and whatever you do has to be your own willing choice.
think about it though; try and talk to your mum before hand..if you have to go, then try and be happy or you will ruin it for everyone, and that will bring your relationship with your family even lower.
let me ask, if you dont mind me prying, wheres your dad?
maybe you can stay with him..Posted 1 year ago #
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