So the thing is, I am pretty certain I am gay, and I keep telling myself that is ok and that I can accept that. However, for some reason, my mind will not let me be gay. It might be hard for you to understand, but let me put it this way: I feel like I have no problem being gay, yet if someone would come up to me and ask me if I was gay, I would lie to them and say no. I feel like I have real problems with this, I have even tried to dress and act gay, because I want to prove to myself and other people that I am not afraid of what I am, yet I get nervous and I worry that people will think I am gay (its confusing). These thoughts of my sexuality have really consumed my life and have put a hindrance on everything: school, friendships, relationships with parents, extracurricular activities etc... I just wish I could go through a day and not have to worry about what or who I am, I just want to be me and live life for the first time in a long time. I have had dark times in my life before and was once diagnosed with depression and anxiety issues, and I dont want those things to become as prominent as they have been before. Should I seek someone to talk to about my problems, and do you think they could help? Or what should I do?
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Should I try to seek out a psychologist/psychiatrist?
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Posted 2 years ago #
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Dude you're just getting used to it - admiting anything as big as sexual orientation to yourself is big, so give yourself some time, huh?
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Talking to a therapist, or even just your school counselor, definitely wouldn't hurt. It sounds like you could use some help sorting out your feelings about your sexuality, and since you have a history of depression, there is a little bit of risk that stress like this could trigger an episode. So yes, I think talking to a trained professional, even if it's just once or twice, could be good for you.
Posted 2 years ago # -
Don't think about being gay or not so much. You are making yourself a nervous mess. Take each day as it comes, and if down the road you feel one way or the other, then accept it. Don't try to be gay right now, if you aren't positive that's what you are. Obviously, you are not yet sure.
Posted 2 years ago #
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